I did something crazy. Something I've been wanting to do for a long time. I have put myself out there on a YouTube channel. I am making a video diary of my weight loss journey. One of my greatest fears is when people think I'm incompetent. I work really hard to give people the best impression of myself but being on YouTube is a completely different experience. I have no control over what people think of me.
I know nothing about video editing. I am using my Iphone 6s. I am editing with whatever software is on my computer. Basically my YouTube channel is everything outside of my comfort zone. Why am I doing this to myself?
I am doing it because I want to grow. I want to stretch myself. Here are my 10 life goals for the next 10 years:
1) I want to travel the world.
2) I want to write a book a year.
3) I want to be a public speaker who empowers and inspires others.
4) I want to be completely out of debt.
5) I want to be a successful beach body coach.
6) I want to be my healthiest self inside and out.
7) I want to remodel the dream home that I currently live in.
8) I want to raise good and kind adults who change the world.
9) I want to make it possible for my husband to retire early.
10) I want to save 1 million dollars.
Why am I sharing my goals with you? These are the reasons I'm putting myself out there on this blog, on YouTube, on Instagram. I want to make a difference in the world. I want to help people become the best version of themselves. I want to become a public speaker and writer professionally. I don't get to those goals by sitting comfortably at home playing video games and watching TV.
I am challenging myself one day at a time. Right now I am focused on one main goal. That main goal is to become my healthiest self inside and out. My entire focus is on making healthy choices for me inside and out and that's scary. The scary part isn't so much the workouts or the nutrition but changing and being vulnerable yet growing a thicker skin. I can't let myself care about what other people say about me. I cannot have any fear.
Healthier choices mean I wake up super early, I workout on program, I pack my lunches, and I live on a schedule. Healthier choices mean I do not let people take advantage of my kindness. They mean I leave situations that are bad for me mentally and drag me down. Healthy choices mean I choose my friends more wisely. Healthier choices mean I stick up for myself and I say no to what I don't want to do. Healthier choices mean I get to choose how I spent my time.
Healthier choices mean I share my story with the world because maybe just maybe I can help one person out there. It means I don't sit and dwell on a difficult past but push towards a brighter future. It means I fall in love with my husband more and more every single day.
Healthier choices are sometimes uncomfortably choices but that's okay. My choices are stretching me and helping me grow into the healthiest version of myself inside and out.
Gratitude List:
1) I am grateful that my 30 days of blogging are almost up. (Only 5 more days)
2) I am grateful for a school that sponsors free events for my kids to get to go to.
3) I am grateful that my children like to be outside.
4) I am grateful that I push myself.
5) I am grateful for to do lists.
6) I am grateful when I finish a good book
7) I am grateful for water bottles
8) I am grateful for time to pack my lunch
9) I am grateful for a lunch pail
10) I am grateful for a working lunch.
Things I have accomplished
1) I have survived summer break.
2) I have prepared my budget spreadsheet for one of my three departments at work for the year.
3) I have organized my work desk.
Question:
What are you afraid of?